"I’ve struggled with my weight my whole life. When I was twenty-one, I decided I wanted to be skinny. I thought it was going to bring me love, happiness, everything I wanted. I barely ate. I exercised three times a day. I got down to 130 pounds and I was more miserable than ever. I hated myself. And after that I gave up on trying to be thin. Now I’ve gotten to the point where I have to lose weight again—- but this time for my health."
Definitely. I haven’t given up on being healthy but malnutrition sucked the life and joy out of me.
- 2.0 miles on the treadmill are vastly different from 2.0 miles on rough terrain. I’m not even dreading my run. I’m actually excited.
- I’m no longer hungry between meals. Re: eating a cup of fruit for snack is GODSEND.
- I will never give up coffee. I will and have given up juice & sodas
- now to run
I had a baked potato for dinner last night with all the fixings. It was amazing and I have no regrets. My water weight dropped. Lowering carb intake is so emotionally difficult when there are added stress factors. I tried to drown out feelings with food. It’s though I keep shifting my addictions. I’ll learn to work with it and not against it.
The first week is nothing. If I can make it through this, then I might just have a chance at making it work.
I can’t believe it’s been three days.
I’ve discovered the trick to moving through temptation: patience
Can’t wait to go home
Today is a rest day because my legs hurt so much
all meals are packed
going for a hike with mom.
i don’t even remind myself that this is day two because it doesn’t matter. sometimes we are on and sometimes we are off. the only goal is to do the best by my body and my heart.
|—||Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart (via quotestuff)|
Backwoods North Carolina running trail. It’s actually county sponsored and as soon as more finding comes in, the trail will be smoothed over will gravel. It’s beautiful out here. Running is soo good.
|—||Cheryl Stayed, Tiny Beautiful Things (via lifelister)|
|—||Sam Levenson (via aestheticintrovert)|